Rumfork Sages

Allow me to preface the following with this...I'm drunk. So yeah.

I'm finding more and more than I have a lot of wisdom to distribute to people...backed up with actual life experience. The thing about all this wisdom is that I cannot follow it myself, so I end up giving people advice that I myself live against because in the end I can't take care of my own life first and foremost.

I really do like bad music when I drink. Along with good music, but I still like a lot of bad stuff.

I find the nature of this thing interesting. I try and try to come up with some form of cohesive content base but I always fail because in the end, I require somewhere to distribute thoughts to a broad base...and despite the fact that I know it's going nowhere, it still must be here. Worry not, loyal fan or three, the webcomic is still coming...but the comic posts will certianly be interlaced with random posts of thoughts of Fork himself.

One thing strikes me today more than any other day. We are, by nature, forced to be someone that we are not. It doesn't matter who we are...all of us are cornered into some sort of fabricated reality in which we think what others want us to think, and say what others want us to say. In the end, is that really so terrible? I think it is, but for the majority of people who merely want to fit in, is it really so bad to be forced to pretend to be a certain type of person? Most people will already morph their personality into something that others would enjoy...would it really be so bad for those people to undergo an entire personality switch? Probably not for them.

I think logic evades most people...they run on what their heart tells them to. Interestingly enough, I think that is the proper way to operate, but I am incapable of similar operation. I require logical deduction to arrive at all conclusions that lead to subsequent decision making. I wish I could follow my heart and do whatever it told me to, but I have done that before, and it lead me to nothing but heartbreak, and thus I shall not allow this type of wanton, useless, pointless decision making occur.

Despite what people say, I think that hip-hop is the most poetic of all forms of music. I speak as a hip-hop artist so I am of course biased. However, I think I could provide many lines to back up my point; but couldn't others provide several as a counter-argument? They probably could. However, many probably couldn't, and I'd win by default. Depressingly, the same could be said about those of fanship of my particular brand of music when battling someone of similar IQ who happened to be a fan of said brand of music.

I regret a lot in my past. There are so many things that I think listing them would be a huge waste of time. However, this thought brings me to a crossroads; were I to not regret said misdoings, would I in fact be the person I am today? Inexorably, the answer is no, but I still find myself wishing for the ability to correct those issues. In a past relationship, which in all honest has come to define myself as a person, sad as that may be, I may so many mistakes that I wish I could go back in time and repair what I did wrong. The funny thing is, even if I were to do that, some things the ol' ex has decided would've ended it all anyway. I know this and yet I wish I could have gone back and prolonged the relationship. If I did, I'd likely still be in pain, but despite knowing this, I still wish I was with her. I guess love matters more than pain when it's all said and done.

I'm really not in love with her anymore. I think I just miss having someone...and that alone means I'd still probably take her back.

That alone is terrible, but undeniable.